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15 Oct · Wed 2008

Nighttime Hell

Its 1:50 am. Both babies have been crying for more than an hour, again. Nursed for an hour before that. They are in their own beds now because I cannot keep them from smooshing themselves up into pillows and rolling off the bed as they howl.

I hate the crying. I cannot handle the crying. This is day 7 of not letting them sleep on me and day 7 of hours and hours of crying a night. I don't know what else to do. I believe in attachment parenting and the crying feels so wrong to me. I feel like throwing up every time it happens, which is all night long. I feel like throwing up all day long, because I am so exhausted. I feel like I cannot win. Tell me this will get better. Its starting to feel like it won't for a long, long time.

@ 02:05 AM PDT [ Comments [4] ]

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Yes, dear heart, it WILL get better soon. Maybe you have to take your own time out and go somewhere and sleep for two days. Can no one can spell you off with bottles for 2 days? And would you trust anyone to (and/or) do that...?....it is YOUR TURN to rest; tell me if I should fly down there and listen to them cry.
I am so sorry you are so tired. But you WILL win!
It is just so much on your plate... do they listen to lullabies, etc.? Am sending the ones I told you about to you today. Hang in there.

Posted by Mary LaFever on October 15, 2008 at 09:30 AM PDT #

Just wanted to let you know that your frustration is not going by unread. As the above commenter said, yes, it will go better. And I second trying to find someone to spot you for two days (heck, even one!). Even if you have to hire a temp nanny, it sounds like a sanity break is really needed here. I am so very sorry that you are so tired. Sending you internet hugs. -Biogirl

Posted by Alexandra on October 15, 2008 at 07:10 PM PDT #

I spoke today to a friend who happens to be a nurse; seemed to her that you might be having some post-partum depression ~ I said I didn't know, but probably not, and that you were 'just exhausted' ~ but is there no one you consult with who can from experience say what's going on? #$%^&* Oh, and she also said she was aware of a kind of mimic-ing practice (called by another name) where you might cry/yell back, with the idea being 'they just want to be heard' LOL, how could you not be hearing them, right? Hope tonight goes better. xo

Posted by Mary LaFever on October 15, 2008 at 08:53 PM PDT #

I swear I just posted a post and it's not showing anyway, hope that you are able to get some sleep Kristin. It's so hard and I'm so sorry you are going through all of this. Hugs honey...
Love,
Kimmer

Posted by Kimmer on October 16, 2008 at 06:27 AM PDT #

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